Shit son! Been a while. Log while. A lot has happened. Wouldn't even know when to start.
I leave for Banff soon. A week to this day. That's a starting point. My time is divided into a matter of days here. Like all the hours are accounted for. Hardly enough time really. There was at one time, a few weeks ago. That never goes as planned though. Was never great at keeping in touch, dissuaded by even the most trivial of matters. I have been busy as people who I have encountered the past few months would attest to.
And now I am going to Banff, Alberta. For a Visual Arts Work Study position at the Banff Centre for the Arts. Basically across the continent. Ocean for the mountains. It never really hit me till today. The shortness of time, and the distance that will be traveled. Like shit. Least I will have one of my best friends there when I get there. For a week and a few. Show me around. Take the edge off it. Then alone.
Working, making art, becoming a better artist. That are the tasks at hand for me. And to do it with style. Not worth doing without.
That is the goal and purpose of the work study. What I have to dedicate myself to. Seek out oportunities. Just do everything. And I want this. I want this so bad. This is what my life needs. New energy, new ideas, a change, a shift in everything. Just there is always, a feeling of nostalgia as in the meaning "the pain a sick person feels because he wishes to return to his native home, and fears never to see it again". There is this feeling of loss. Like I am losing something by going away. Something I may never get back to.
I'm gone for six months. Back in November. At the least. Could be extended...will probably be extended till March, so twelve months. I suppose I would return for Christmas if I can. Always a pricey and tricky proposition with the way air flights are round the holidays.
That's the other part that gets me. The openess of it in a way. Kinda planned ahead for a year - in a sense- just not sure what that year will contain. Apply for residencies after it, gallery shows, masters, etc?
This is a disjointed piece of writing. My horoscope is interesting at the moment.
I leave for Banff soon. A week to this day. That's a starting point. My time is divided into a matter of days here. Like all the hours are accounted for. Hardly enough time really. There was at one time, a few weeks ago. That never goes as planned though. Was never great at keeping in touch, dissuaded by even the most trivial of matters. I have been busy as people who I have encountered the past few months would attest to.
And now I am going to Banff, Alberta. For a Visual Arts Work Study position at the Banff Centre for the Arts. Basically across the continent. Ocean for the mountains. It never really hit me till today. The shortness of time, and the distance that will be traveled. Like shit. Least I will have one of my best friends there when I get there. For a week and a few. Show me around. Take the edge off it. Then alone.
Working, making art, becoming a better artist. That are the tasks at hand for me. And to do it with style. Not worth doing without.
That is the goal and purpose of the work study. What I have to dedicate myself to. Seek out oportunities. Just do everything. And I want this. I want this so bad. This is what my life needs. New energy, new ideas, a change, a shift in everything. Just there is always, a feeling of nostalgia as in the meaning "the pain a sick person feels because he wishes to return to his native home, and fears never to see it again". There is this feeling of loss. Like I am losing something by going away. Something I may never get back to.
I'm gone for six months. Back in November. At the least. Could be extended...will probably be extended till March, so twelve months. I suppose I would return for Christmas if I can. Always a pricey and tricky proposition with the way air flights are round the holidays.
That's the other part that gets me. The openess of it in a way. Kinda planned ahead for a year - in a sense- just not sure what that year will contain. Apply for residencies after it, gallery shows, masters, etc?
This is a disjointed piece of writing. My horoscope is interesting at the moment.
"I actually kind of hope that your brain is in major overload right now. I hope that you're feeling a bit overwhelmed by all the new information you've absorbed, and that your imagination is a blur of wheels within wheels within wheels spinning at top speeds. In fact I'll go so far as to say that if this is the case, you're definitely on the right track. You're doing what's necessary to prepare for rebuilding your foundation in May. And if for some reason there are no wheels within wheels within wheels spinning at top speeds -- if your mind is as empty and clear as a cloudless blue sky in Montana -- then you're probably doing something wrong. So get out there and start stuffing it with new ideas, radical theories, crazy speculations, wild guesses, and raw perceptions."
What am I doing. lol
What am I doing. lol
